these are just thoughts...can you handle them?
hopefully you can...because I'm not so sure if I can...
it's funny, in an ironic way, that i'm blogging right now, because I usually don't do so, if I even do at all, without some sense of purpose...
contrary to that...I just felt like writing because I feel like I have a lot on my mind at the moment...or more accurately...I DEFINITELY have a lot on my mind at the moment....and it's awkward feeling as vulnerable as I do right now...
I am currently finishing up my 4th full year of studies at Simon Fraser University...my 2nd full year of work at Sears Canada...and my 2nd full year as Chapter Head of CFC-YFC Vancouver...
It's funny cuz' I've just started chatting on MSN, with one of the few people I legitly engage in conversations with on MSN anymore...and it's ironic because I think i'm in a state of some quasi-solemn, reflectiveness about something that this friend of mine says she has been devoting a lot of her time on lately, which is "finding herself"...((if this particular friend of mine is reading this and is uncomfortable with me sharing what I just did...i'm sorry! =P))...
I'm tempted to say "i honestly believe", but I'll more accuarately state, I hesitatingly THINK that I know who I 'truly' am...but even if I did, for some reason, it seems like i've spent a large portion of my life being a person which isn't truly who God wants me to be (lol...that just made me laugh...cause of the ridiculous obviousness of that statement)...but yeah...I just think it's weird how easy it is to give out advice to people, or words of knowledge, yet so hard to live by those very same 'principles'...
Another weird fact for me has to be how hard it is to 'simply' disregard or ignore the pressures of society and/or peer pressure, especially if coming from family or friends...
((i haven't read over what I just wrote...but i'm sure i'm sounding like what Marge refers to Apu as in episode #2 of The Simpsons this season...which is... a blabber mouth...=P))
anyways...I feel like I should leave off on some sort of positive...which might be right in line with the rest of my blog...if you're some sort of optimistic phenom...(Y)
one thing i'm definitely proud of are two brothers that i'm really close to...Anton Aldaba and Vic The Stick Tabamo...it's weird because...many people already know this, but I've always put them priority #1 since being chapter head (them along with Cridels)...I made it a strict point to always try and be there for them it whatever way they needed me, withouth trying to directly tell them, even though I'm sure I did multiple times now and again...but with that...it's a blessing to simply witness what these Men of God have become...I humbly try to take absolutely no credit for what they have become, but rather, smile at the fact that I was blessed enough to be around to see the growth in them...because of the bloodline I've been able to see Anton for a much longer period of time; however, the transformation in character in the both of them, is subtle, yet strikingly significant...
Anton...I'm proud of you homie...and I will continue to pray for you and your vocation/future...whatever God chooses to do with all the amazing talents that you possess to serve him...
without being unfair to Anton...or anyone else for that matter...I'm going to end off by 'tipping my cap' (so lame...lol) to THE STICK...viccc...since he's 'MOVING AWAY' soon...and...DEFINITELY DOESN'T GET THE MASSIVE AMOUNT OF PROPS HE DESERVES...for anyone that doesn't know...Victor Tabamo is the personified definition of a 'man' (without the whole Bible Game character vibe)...I've definitely never come across a guy...or person for that matter...who is genuinely a good person...who willingly leaves himself more vulnerable to ABUSE...yet takes it all...and offers up the other cheek for good measure...seriously though...Vic...you're the kobe bryant in life...THEE most outstanding...HahHha...never again will I make that reference...so I hope you enjoyed it...lol...but honestly...for every1 that doesn't know...there is seriously no1 else that more humbly cares for the people around him...no1 that's more humble period...nobody that gives the truth no matter what the consequence...it's too bad that i'm so terrible with words because I honestly can't give the true amount of honour that you deserve Vic...and it's so awesome that you learned everything from yours truly...LOL...j/p...
jokes asidethough ...Vic...I truly honour you bro...for being probably the best example of a Man of God that I can come up with...and I sincerely hope you keep in mind that I continue to honour you even when I neglect to mention it...I know that I'll still see you quite often (hopefully?) this summer...yet...it should go without saying that you'll still really be missed bro...God bless my man...have a good one this summer... |